I’ve think I’ve lost the war.

You know the one I mean, right? The war raging in my home: estrogen vs. testosterone? I’m outnumbered. The only way to balance things out is to get rid of The Boyfriend and the orange cat. And even then, what good is the female cat when her greatest talent is puking on things I’ve just cleaned?

Dishes done every day? Get real. I’m lucky if I can step into the kitchen. JL’s misguided sense that “everything must be fair” is back in full force. He doesn’t believe in picking up anything that he didn’t get out, washing anything that he didn’t dirty and oh my GOSH was he offended that I felt he had to be taught how to use our electric lawn mower. Well, when you never mowed the lawn since we’ve lived here….

JM had a job interview last week for something that would be a huge help. A full time security guard position with a nice hourly wage and full benefits, including free tuition. But I suspect he didn’t get it, as there’s a letter waiting for him today. If I’m right, I’m worried about his reaction. It could go either way. He could be upset at not getting the opportunity. On the other hand, he could be somewhat relieved that he’s not going to have to deal with the stress.

Things are tight on the money front. I made one crucial mistake a couple months ago, and it’s coming back to haunt me now. I took the boys out to dinner for their birthday. On the one hand, I never do anything for their birthday anymore. I haven’t in years. But the money could have been better spent elsewhere.

My deferred compensation kicked in last month, so my net income is about $50 less per month. I had hoped to increase my deduction for it, but the way things are going… that missing $50 is already hurting me. When it costs me $8 in gas just to go out to where my dad lives and back, $50 is a lot of money.

So, nothing gets spent this month, outside of monthly bills. Not on new shoes that I desperately need, not on the Counting Crows CD that I really want, or any of the cabinet organizers I’ve had my eye on. Nada. Not even on groceries! Given that I did such a great job at the grocery store over the weekend, I really have no reason to go back there for quite some time. I already told The Boyfriend that he was responsible for any items I may have missed, or for milk “restocking.” But really, I think we’ll be ok until the end of the month, especially since I organized that pantry on Saturday. Even JM commented on it!

I’ll make it. It’s not as though I’m behind on anything. I’m just trying to make sure that I don’t get in that position. Especially since car insurance starts up again next month, and along with it, the neverending battle of getting a certain son to cough up his share in a timely manner. But it’ll be a LOT easier with him here in the house, instead of 700 miles away at camp. *evil laugh*